I’m actually looking forward to work tomorrow, probably because my boss allows me to help with the dispensing of medication. Oh and I got my book I ordered: The Psychology of Harry Potter! I really wish I didn’t have to start uni. Life needs to slow the fuck down. I feel sick to my stomach because time keeps moving and I don’t seem to change. I don’t want to grow old and be alone but I don’t think I want to be in a relationship either I’ve never seen a relationship work, I don’t want to get hurt. I’m not very good at keeping friends either, I’m too messed up. No one wants to be in any kind of relationship with me, no one wants a friend who is always upset and always doubting themself. I’ve been trying to change for a year, I went to the doctors I got help. I went on zoloft and I started seeing a psychologist, my psychologist thinks I’m fine. I’m not fine.